Guru? Perhaps not? Perhaps, crossing over!

Life is so precious. Our journey in life has so many dimensions that too often the meanings somewhat are past over or get lost and then you are reminded of the purpose or simple the feeling of being loved. Many times I try to bubble or capture those moments and put them in a jar to hang onto them and to savor them forever, but I was reminded tonight that the balance in ones life is simple loosing your balance in loving and being loved. It can't be bottled up and put on the shelf; it will die if that is where it stays. Letting yourself go or releasing yourself of those boundaries of fear of the unknown is what keeps it alive. I have had so much in life and I still have people who are important and very much a part of my life. I read what my beautiful daughter has and wants and experiences and I am overwhelmed with joy. Joy that she has learned the value of love and being loved. I hear, see, touch and feel a part of her life and know what it is like to feel those feelings she has, we all have experienced them. I am so happy that she has a strong bond and connection with her daddy. I feel at peace that she experiences this love and that she is able to express her joyfulness and appreciation for the daddy/daughter bond.

It has been 8 months since our arrival in Utah. This journey has taught me much. I have walked hand in hand with a very special mentor and at times he has carried me when I have been too weak to move forward. I wish I could report that I have journeyed by way of eating through Italy or praying and mediating in India and ending my last months of the year in Bali; but I haven't been that fortunate. However, the lessons along the way have taught me much and I pray that I may be enlightened even more in the next phase.

For those who read my update...my love goes out to you and I thank you for being a part of my life. Perhaps there is no one reading these posts, I can only say that I get something out of it by saying and putting it out to the universe and May God allow me to be better by doing so.